"And I will walk at liberty"--that is FREEDOM, without any bondage.
"When I speak those testimonies"...I will no longer be silent.
I will speak about God and his laws and I will no have shame in doing it.
What God has told me--I won't be ashamed, I won't hide under insecurity or fear.
I will say NO when I need to and YES when I need to.
I have been praying to God for the past weeks to give me the strength I need to no longer have the mindset of needing to be silent. I have prayed to be healed from those areas of my life that taught me incorrectly to be silent when I needed to open my mouth the most. I was so used to communication on a difficult or uncomfortable subject being received in a form of a letter. Anytime a situation arose, there was never a sit down, it was always a letter and don't you dare write one back!
I knew when I said YES -I meant NO and right after it, I promised God it would be my last time doing it. But it wasn't...
- Firstly, I knew I had to acknowledge my problem and face it head on.
- Secondly, I had to be honest and open about the most recent situation.
- Thirdly, I had to seek God's word and gain understanding of what being silent was doing to my life and relationships.
Psalm 119:45 reads :
"And I will walk at liberty, For I seek Your precepts"
You may be already aware that I've been studying Psalm 119-cross referencing reflecting, journaling etc.
This passage jumped on my face...I immediately looked up what the word liberty meant in this particular passage.
Liberty=Freedom
1. Free
2. Open
3. No Restraints
4. No Limits
I wanted to be free! I want to be free! I knew this verse would mean a lot to me. I begin to reflect on certain situations where I felt so bonded, not even past ones...the recent ones. Why did I feel so bonded?
I watch Dharius Daniels---(Find him on YouTube)
One of his sermons I watched a couple months ago focused on when the enemy tried Jesus when he was fasting...yeah, HE TRIED IT! Matthew 4 outlines the conversation Jesus and Satan had that day in the wilderness. Daniels highlighted the importance of TAKING BACK! Speak up! SAY WHAT YOU NEED TO SAY!
Oh...you should see my Bible! I took a lot of notes on that sermon! Highlighted & everything and missed that not only did that apply to me speaking up against the devil, it applied to me speaking up period!
Daniels said: "God has already told you who you were, don't allow the enemy to deceive you."
Man...has the enemy deceived me..A LOT! The crazy part about it is...he used ME to deceive ME. That's how blind I was and have been.
BUT
I now have the strength and knowledge to say: AWAY WITH YOU SATAN!
I now have the strength and knowledge to walk in my freedom & not in my bondage.
I now have the strength and knowledge to no longer be silent but to speak God's word-what he says, what he tells me to do...No matter who does or doesn't like it.
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